No matter how hard you try, this person will never love you. It’s not that they don’t want to, it’s because they can’t. While it’s possible to love two people at once, someone always comes out on top, and sweetie, it isn’t you.
Sometimes people are emotionally unavailable, and they just keep other people around to fill their lonely void until the person they truly want reciprocates their love. There is no amount of text messages, phone calls, late night talk sessions that can change this. You cannot and will not make this person love you.
But you’re still going to try.
You’re still going to log onto Facebook chat at 3 am just to talk to them even though your body is craving sleep. You’re still going to bring them their coffee favourites because maybe this coffee will make them realize that you’re meant to be together. You’re still going to blow off hanging out with your other friends because you not only want to hang out with this other person, but you need to. Lastly, even when they finally tell you that they don’t love you, you’re still going to love them.
Even though everyone around you tells you that this person is wrong for you, you will smile and nod, because you’re off in your own thoughts trying to scheme ways to make this person fall deeply in love with you.
When you receive a text from this person your smile will feel as if it’s cutting into your cheeks, the folds of your smile burning from the joy this person makes you feel. Anytime you hear their name your heart picks up, ecstatic at the mere mention of this persons existence. You will not realize that other people are trying to hit on you/and or are interested in you because this person consumes your love.
But they don’t deserve it.
All of the coffee, and Iming, and late night talks cannot make someone love you. It will not transform this person’s feelings for somebody else to you. They will still constantly talk about the other person, how they bring them coffee, talk to them late at night, and you will eventually realize that they are performing the same act you are—but just not for you.
Your smile will continue to burn, but not for your love of this person, but from the fake smile you now put on for this individual. Slowly, you will acknowledge your performance, and how you have been spending all your time just trying—trying—and hoping that they will love you.
It’s okay to be in love with somebody who doesn’t love you. When you finally realize that they don’t love you, it’s time to pack up your love and move on.
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